Funkmaster C

i might walk to lunch to get a sandwich. but i'm not even hungry [ and i'm never not hungry ] because i'm in an exceptional funk right now. i won't complain on my next blog. i promise. but i need 2 minutes to do just that.

four years ago i tripped over a suitcase and severely dislocated my shoulder. i was walking into my bedroom after a business trip and was Q-tipping [a verb?] and not looking at the floor to see the suitcase. i know. so embarassing, so ridiculous, but that's what happened. i suffered a posterior dislocation, which makes up only 3% of shoulder discloations; the rest of them being anterior. posterior is when the shoulder and scapula are discloated backwards, whereas anterior is forward. the pain and the resulting damage is significantly more severe, and i now deal with a right shoulder that dislocates so easy it's scary - it even fully came out in my sleep a few months ago. i got it back in on my own, whereas the first time it was the ER, morphine, and 2 doctors. i have known i need to see someone about this, need to try to do what i can to prevent surgery, and after being in a pool about a month ago i heard a little something tear. basically its a mess.

so early this morning i was out running in the navy yard. the cobblestone was so slick from the day's before rain and sleet... and i slipped and i fell... landing on my left shoulder. (formerly known as The Good One)... and it popped out. this must be what anterior is. it wasn't n-e-a-r-l-y as bad. but it was bad. i got it back in myself and fairly quickly, (as most people with anterior dislocations are able to do). but the point is.. that this happened. and i'm upset. and i could barely shampoo. and i walked back from my run in tears. and now i have one terrible shoulder and one not-so-good-one. and yes, i finally made an appointment with a well known shoulder specialist in boston for the earliest availability of january 19th.

when i was little my go-to swimcap said, "no whining".
i've not done a very good job of following those orders today.
sincerely,
Funkmaster C